I fall in love a little bit with every person I meet —
their eyes, their heart, their passions.
I see the good and I cling to it.
and maybe that’s my biggest fault line,
and maybe I toe it too much.
it’s why I spent two years next to a man
who never truly loved me —
settling for coming second to his addictions,
because I know deep down he was trying.
it’s why I find myself tethered to friendships
I have to crawl away from
after they become so toxic I can barely breathe.
I won’t apologize.
not for seeing the gold in someone,
not for trying to dust out their soul,
and not for recognizing the kindness in eyes that have turned cold.
I wish I knew better.