4:10 pm.

I fall in love a little bit with every person I meet —

their eyes, their heart, their passions.

I see the good and I cling to it.

and maybe that’s my biggest fault line,

and maybe I toe it too much.

it’s why I spent two years next to a man

who never truly loved me —

settling for coming second to his addictions,

because I know deep down he was trying.

it’s why I find myself tethered to friendships

I have to crawl away from

after they become so toxic I can barely breathe.

I won’t apologize.

not for seeing the gold in someone,

not for trying to dust out their soul,

and not for recognizing the kindness in eyes that have turned cold.

but sometimes,

I wish I knew better.